先放放眼下好几个deadline，忙里偷闲写篇日志吧。

Let me put the several deadlines aside, and write something to relax.


脑袋里经常会出现一些稀奇古怪的想法，或者也可以叫做灵感。有时候你会感到一种神奇的力量，仿佛点燃了激情。前几天邓亚兰同学看到我改了签名还在QQ上问我“你在激情梦想乜嘢？”，我说昨天晚上突然有那么几秒钟我发现我没激情了，觉得学习没意思，人生没意思，活着没意思。。。这是个危险的时刻。据说一个人把谎话重复说100遍连自己都会相信是真的，我只是于此时提醒了自己。

There are often some strange thoughts in my mind. You can call it as inspiration. Sometimes it is like a kind of magic power that light the passion. A few days ago Yalan asked me about my status, “What are you dreaming about?” I said that there maybe one or two seconds at last night I feeling no passion any more. Studying is meaningless; life is meaningless; living is meaningless. This is a dangerous moment. It is said that one man who repeated lies 100 times will believe it as truth. I just reminded myself at the moment.

我在写字。很久没有拿笔写字了，很明显地发现字体退化了很多。看看以前那些潇洒激昂的笔迹吧，或许也是思考的间隙。“寄蜉蝣于天地，渺沧海之一粟。”反复地写，昔人兴感之由，未尝不临文嗟悼。

I was writing. It is long time that I have not written so many words with a pen, whose result is that the calligraphy is not as well as before. Look at the cool exciting handwriting of past. Maybe it is time to think it over. “A mayfly in the universe is so tiny, just like a drop in the sea.” Wrote it again and again, I shared the same feelings with ancients, sighing and mourning.

回到激情上来。我想我有一堆例子来描述这样的时刻。比如2年前的某天在武大的课堂上想起一些什么，立刻翘课回宿舍整理思路，当时真是满怀激情，还短信给波波说我有个很好的想法，能赚大钱的那种。可笑的想法。其实当时我已经发现了缺陷，并且嘲笑自己就拿这个改变世界？但你仍抑制不住地怀念那样一个时刻。

Just go back to the passion. I think I have a bunch of examples to describe such a moment. Just like what happened during a class when I am still WHUer two years ago – I skipped the class and return to the dormitory immediately with passion. I sent SMS to my friend Yang Bo, who was still in that class then and in CAS now, that I have a great idea to make big money. I wanted to realize the great idea together with him. Stupid idea actually. In fact I discovered the defect then. You will change the world just with this? However, I still could not suppress to miss that moment.

Sroan写过一篇博客《五年之后》，讲的是他拿着计划书见风投。里面有这么一段：“manager看完之后，很不淡定地问我：“如果Google进入这个市场，你们打算怎么办？”我笑了笑，很淡定告诉他：我们可以把业务都放在中国！”而在此之前，“主管随便翻了两页，很淡定地问我：“如果疼逊也进入这个市场，你们打算怎么办？”窗外突然一个晴天霹雳……”这两段话很有意思。在他改校内状态“最近突然发现搞个硕士文凭很有必要”时我曾戏谑地回复道“最近突然发现搞个博士文凭很有必要”。这是一部分的真实，你无法判定它的对与错。我们都是有理想的人，除了在某些时刻会迷失自己。因为我还是会经常感叹：我还有好多事情要做啊。

There is an article in Sroan’s Blog named Five Years Later, telling a story that he meet VC with his plan. After reading the plan, the manager asked him with worry, “What if Google in?” He smiled and stayed calm, “Then we can keep our business in China!” It is humorous. But wait, “What if Tencent in?” Just like a sudden bolt outside. He changed his status recently, “I find it necessary to get a master degree”. And I replied “I find it necessary to get a PhD”. This is part of the truth which you can not judge it right or wrong. We are all people with dreams, except some moments that I lost myself. It can be proofed. Because I always feel that I still have a lot of things to do in the lifetime.

生命的意义是什么？答案并不应该是那个古老的悖论——生命的意义就是不断地探寻到底什么是生命的意义——听起来太像文字游戏了。《华尔街2》里面有句台词，“你的数字是多少？你离开华尔街去过理想生活之前想达到的目的？大家都有一个特定的数字，你的是什么？”的确，我之前也曾想过这个问题。最后你会发现这一切与钱无关，这才是生活。

What is the aim of life? The answer should not be the paradox which sounds like words game too much. There is a dialog in the movie Wall Street Money Never Sleep.

“What is your number?”
“I am sorry?”
“The amount of money you would need to just walk away from it and live.”
“More.”

Actually I also have thought about the number. The truth is that no matter how much money you make, you will never be rich. It is not about the money. It is about the game.

对与错，这的确是个难于回答的问题。

True or false, That is the question.